Here I am & Puss and bleed

Here I am & Puss and bleed

Here I am

here I am again just sitting alone,

in just another place I can't call my home,

here where tears fall like rain and flood the gutters,

sometimes I can't look at myself in the mirror,

I sit for hours and hours wishing i was someone new,

and not me, people ask why and i say, take a look at me!

they say no one is perfect and I agree,

this world is fucked up so what else is new?

do i look like a girl who cares what the world thinks?

i have scars on my heart, I want to run far away,

to a place that isn't here, so here iam,

do i sound happy? I'm alone...

listening to myself breathe, i want to get up and leave,

would you run away with me?

come to be free away from the chains of life,

it can't rain all the time, but where iam its flooded,

by teary rain...so here iam...do i sound like im in pain?

Puss and bleed

who said the shit would all end?

here iam crying again,

the same old things happening in my life,

in my life happiness just barely exsists,

there they are yelling because their pissed,

its usually because of me can't keep my mouth shut,

I'm just causing old wounds to puss and bleed,

I pretend like i'm asleep, just lay there,

curled up scared, afraid of myself,

afraid of what might happen next,

just believing everything in life is hexed,

why are people the way they are?

I think they purposely look for another heart to scar,

well it worked just another scar to add to my collection,

it comes with the infection, another one to puss and bleed,

well if you tried to hurt me you will be happy to know you did succeed.